I was on Pinterest the other night and saw a book that looked appealing. I found it on Barnes & Noble and read the first few pages they had available to preview. I was shedding tears within seconds. So I ordered it and it just arrived. Perfect timing, too.
The Lime has been a tiny pill these last few days and I thought we were seeing improvement today. That was until we returned our Red Box movie and he asked if he could get another one. I told him not today and he threw a fit. We went straight to the car where he proceeded to throw Lucifer at me. That was it, he was going straight to bed when we got home and wasn't getting lunch. "But I'm starving!" he managed to say in between gasps for air from crying so hard. Thankfully, he ate breakfast and had a snack in between so I knew he wasn't starving. The thought of caving crossed my mind but I knew I had to stand my ground or he'd know I was easy to sway. We got home and he went straight to bed, after he begged and promised that he'd be nicer. He fell asleep within minutes.
I was feeling pretty bad and sent LaVor a text message telling him I had to send The Lime to bed without lunch, sad face included. Then I heard some noise on the porch and it ended up being the mailman with my book.
I began sobbing just from the "Notes from the Author" and continued to sob through the short story.
Being a parent is hard. It's hard being patient, getting up at all hours of the night, listening to the whines, being told you're mean and not loved, having stinky pink cats named Lucifer thrown at your head. But the hardest thing, I think, is watching your babies grow and know that they will one day leave and start a family and life of their own. The Lime told me today that he wasn't going to get old and I certainly wish that was the case. I would love for him to stay by my side forever (just in a 4 year old body, not 40).
It reminds me of the song by Trace Adkins, "You're Gonna Miss This". At the end of the song, there's a plumber doing some work for a mom while her kids are crying and screaming in the background. She apologizes profusely to the plumber and he tells her he has two of his own, but they're grown. He proceeds to tell her how she'll miss "this" and she'll want it back, how she would wish time didn't pass so quickly.
I have all these little reminders around me to cherish every moment because the firsts are fun and exciting but you never know when it'll be their last.

